Am I ‘Cold-Hearted’ or ‘Mind-Divided’

I’ve recently gone in a new direction in my life, it’s a direction I would have NEVER thought about, let alone wanted to go in the past. The direction concerns working with those who are no longer living. My new job is being a Medicolegal Death Investigator.
Granted I haven’t had a lot of calls at this point, but what has surprised me the most about myself is that I have not been bothered by any aspect of the job, yet. I will admit that I have some apprehension about a situation where odor, and dealing with odor, is the main focus in order for me to do my job. Odors have bothered me in the past so I will try to be as prepared as I can.
I see my duties as necessary for finding the truth of any situation, and being respectful of the essence of the person who has passed. My focus is scientific rather than emotional.
Now, what has happened that has caused me to ponder my question (this post’s title) is that when I read something about a friend/neighbor’s dog who was found dead in a ditch, I began to cry. I didn’t know the dog, but I still cried. At that point I realized that I hadn’t known any of the people I had dealt with as a D.I., and I had felt nothing emotionally about their passing.
Maybe my mind set is to be Mind-Divided so that I can do my job to the best of my ability to insure the people I deal with get the best possible assistance by the medical examiner’s office that has hired me.
I shall focus on the positive and know that I am not cold-hearted, I just prioritize a little differently now.

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About mikkiroderick

With age comes wisdom. With wisdom comes maturity. Maturity is not synonymous with growing up. I'm still a child at heart.
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2 Responses to Am I ‘Cold-Hearted’ or ‘Mind-Divided’

  1. Kathy F. says:

    Whatever it is I’m very proud of you. Since this type of thing is so out of my realm of possibilities, I have a lot of respect for people who are able to do it. Just like anything I’ve ever known you to do, you will do your best and be the most respect and mindful of giving it your all. I’m so glad to have such a remarkable friend!

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  2. Vicki Carlson says:

    You got it. You described the whole aspect completely. Cold-hearted………….Never, that would never describe you 🙂 Ever!

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